March 6 2023
Life has a cadence and we work hard trying to keep it fluid and balanced. When things are going well, we feel in sync with our surroundings. When we are thrown off balance we feel disconnected, and sometimes even unable to move forward until we ‘right’ ourselves.
Those moments can feel frustrating because they drain us of our energy, and many times there is nothing we can personally do to make it better. You just have to wait it out….you have to wait until the universe rights itself. Most often, that time comes when we finally let go and stop trying to control the people or the things that have us so tangled up.
Life has a cadence and it is fluid. People will come and go through your life, special moments will linger and then vaporize. Nothing is forever, and nothing is as it will always be. Each person is on their own journey. We never know how long a relationship will last or how cherished we are to others. Until we are not. We may play a significant role in someones life and suddenly find ourselves no longer a cherished part of that life.
I have realized when that happens…..its not a rejection of your self worth, or value as a person. It simply means the alignment of your life with theirs has come to an end. People move on to the next chapter of their life and sometimes it wont include you. Rather than feel rejected, understand that it may be time for you to move on as well. We don't always know what is best for ourselves, but the universe does. What feels like a punishment one day….can be realized as a gift, in the days and months that follow.
Embrace that…….lean in to that. Because that’s where you’re going.
I have more days behind me than ahead of me, and I’m still chasing a dream that I’m trying desperately to make happen. And the funny thing is…I never realized it even WAS a dream, until my balance was thrown off by a person who disconnected themselves and started a new path without me. That pushed me to reevaluate my life and carve out a new path for myself as well. I spent years crying, and lamenting over all the ‘why’s’…..but in the end, it doesn't matter. Because if you weren't cherished enough to be given a reason why….they aren't worth waiting around for.
Not one, singular person has more value than you.
You are such a gift….just the way you are…..just the way the universe created you.
When that finally sinks in……so many doors open, and so many opportunities present themselves. Suddenly…you have a new dream, a new goal, and you realize the many hidden talents and gifts you have possessed all along but for some reason have gone uncelebrated. They may have been hidden in the mire of your past, but the important thing is….you realize them now. That’s the fluidity of life. Ever changing.
I remember, when I was a little girl, looking at beautiful pictures in the National Geographic magazine. It was one of my fathers favorite magazines and when it would arrive in the mail, we would sit down together and go through it… turning each page together. The breathtaking pictures of places I never thought I would see in person….I now stand in. I have the privilege of standing amongst trees that are hundreds of feet tall and hundreds of years old. I walk with wildlife that have graciously accepted me into their world, and my life is once again aligned. I feel reconnected…but in a different way. Not reconnected with the people from my past, but fully accepting and connected to the path I am on.
Looking back five years, my life was aligned with what was meant for me at that time. I am grateful for everything…the good and the not-so-good, because it pushed me to be better. To be stronger, more resilient, and much more patient.
I’ve learned to wait. And I’ve learned to listen.
And in the quiet…..I can feel the alignment of dreams coming true.
It all has a purpose….every moment, every teardrop, every challenge……..lean in.
But that’s just my opinion. :)
